Everything Happens For A Reason

It's been a few days since I blogged, I just have had a lot of things going on.  Thursday I went to the emergency room due to some very painful cramping only to find out that I was miscarrying again! It was hard I was very emotional and just felt like is this ever going to end. The hardest part of it was telling Shane while he was on Deployment he was so excited about this baby. He was sad but more worried about me emotionally and mentally. So on  Friday I tried looking at it on a brighter note. Maybe its not meant for me to be pregnant or have a baby when he isn't home. But hey I am going to keep trying til I cant try any more.  Now I have my mind focus on enrolling in school on the fifteenth if I can choose between accounting, early childhood education, or pharmacy tech. I have no idea what what I want to do better figure it our sometime soon. So now I am just trying my best to stay busy until Shane tells me whether his packet to cross rate was approved and if they would be sending him off the ship early. =) I'd love to pick him up from the airport instead of homecoming in Spring. Well I am running low on words..... Blog Ya Later =)