Days Away

So I am literally days away to having my husband home..... I am very anxious. There are a lot of things I need to do but procrastination is def my middle name lol. I didnt have a problem figuring out what to wear when we went on our first date, or what to wear the day we decided to get married but I am not happy with any of the choices I have as far as clothes go..... I know he could care less what I wear as long as I am on the pier waiting for him he is good to go. I am trying to find things to do to keep me busy but right now sleep is my number one choice. I dont know which was worse the first month or this last month... I wish someone would do all the decision making for me so all I had to worry about was getting to the pier. I guess I will end this will be sure to do a update blog once he is home and we have "caught up" 
Until Next Time......

Months Later.......

Wow its been forever since I have done this. So much has changed. There is weeks left til deployment is over and boy what a challenge and learning experience it has been. To catch you up... I started a support group on FB for military gf's, wives, and fiancées called Military Wives Sisterhood. That page has helped me through a lot of sleepless nights, kept me from wanting to break down, and I actually think the page has done some good for ladies that  just need the support they are not getting else where. When I started it in October, I would never have believed today that there would be over 1500 girls that wanted to be apart of it. I am still amazed. 


As far as education goes I am still going to school for Early Childhood Education and will be finished in September and have my associates degree. I am also going to school for a Pharmacy Tech course set up through the military and they pay for the whole thing. I could go to school for the rest of my life for something different for the rest of my life. There are so many things I wanna do and I am determined to conquer them all before I leave Earth.


As far as Mr. Miller and I go..... Deployment has been hard on us. We fight like cats and dogs through email. I tell you when they say Deployment will make or break you... They were not lying. This has been our first time without being near each other and he is very clingy and can find a way to pester me through email which is irritating. Since he has been gone I have become so independent. Before he left I thought my world would fall apart being with out him but after a while you get in routine and you get use to him not coming home from work, or not being there to roll the trash to the street, or hold you at night. I have become self efficient and honestly that scares him. I know one thing I realized that I dont need any man in my life to make me happy. That I can manage being alone. To me thats amazing since one of my biggest fears was being alone..... 


As far as my Family goes.... My sister is officially Army Strong..... She is stationed in Oklahoma and just got married 3 weeks ago. So know I have  a new brother in law which I love to death and i have known him for years, we all went to high school together and we graduated in the same class. My brother moved to Maryland to live with my dad and finish up his last year in high school next year. So I am the only Phillips left in VA lol. I miss my siblings. 


So now with homecoming weeks away. I am trying to get the house perfect, get everything ready,and still work on the two of us. Its exhausting honestly. But nothing worth fighting for is ever easy. I think a lot of it just has to do with us not use to being apart. I have changed a lot i mean its been 7 months nothing stays the same at home. Well we have a few months left on the ship and then shore duty for 3 years. I swear when they said the first year is the hardest they did not lie.  But now we are on year 2 so hopefully it is way smoother....


Well until next time Muah

Random Ramblings

So it has been a while since I blogged. Not a whole lot going on here at home. Just waiting on deployment money which is seeming to take forever. Shane's package got approved for cross rating so he will be home sooner than expected woo hoo! What a happy camper I will be when his orders come in and they finally give us a day! The best Christmas gift would be having him home for Christmas. 
My sister left for Army basic training Oct 3. I miss that little monster. She graduates Dec 15 I cant wait to be there. I am so proud of her. What a great life she is making for her and her son. =D 
So my friend Lovey is having her baby in Feb which I am the God Mother to. I cant wait what a spoiled little one he is gonna be. 
Other than that nothing is really new. Just though I would blog about something since it has been such a long time. Blog ya later =D

Officially A Month Down

So I know its been forever and a day since I have blogged. I was just irritated and didn't have much to talk about. So to put you back in the know. lol. So my bday was 11 days ago. I had a great time. I had something at the house with a few of the wives. My husband managed to get me out an email and send me an edible arrangement. Which was yummy by the way. That was one of the best birthday gifts I could have had this year.                                      Janeen and I at my B-Day Dinner

 

The cutest card came with this lets just say breath taking   

A few days before my mother in law sent me an amazing card! I mean it brought me to tears! I was missing Shane so much because well they were sitting in River city for about 10+ days and it felt like months. I was feeling really insecure ( something that never happens to me) I was wondering if he still loved me or if he found someone else.  She just let me know that he will always love me and that everything was all right. I so love her! 

Now on Sept 30th we had a Tropical Storm lets just say we got more rain then we got with that Category 1 Hurricane lol. I watched people push there cars through water and crap it was really just terrible. Thank God for my husbands MAN BEAST ( The Truck)  It has over sized tires and a lift on it so I wasnt getting stuck any where. Water was so high in our parking lots. 

This was in side the parking lot it look like a freaking kiddie swimming pool

This was the parking lot and street outside of housing terrible.


It rained so much that ants decided to take over my house cause they were not surviving outside I almost went insane. It wasn't just the ants it was the SPIDERS & CENTEPEIDS. I do not like bugs of any sort except ( worms, lady bugs, butterflies, and snails) That is it. lol. But I dont want to see them in my house either. Needless to say that I got rid of them with the help of the Terminex man!  So I think I have done pretty well of avoiding the Murphy law theory until about now everything is breaking my dishwasher has no water coming out of it. I am like ugh okay how do we fix that??  Housing hopefully will fix that tomorrow. My door is broke again do to a pipe bursting in my wall a third time. I just am going to ignore Murphy and hope for things to get better. =D
 So I am officially a month down! Yay! Now if we can get the money for them being gone. I am use to struggling while he is here and when he comes back I refuse to be that way. Paying off lots of bills and doing lots of saving.  Especially because we are talking about ending his navy career in the next 3 1/2 yrs cause we dont like the distance but hey depending on the economy who knows. He is going to do what is best for us. If staying in is best than thats what he is going to do.  I can understand that.  I sent off his second care package woo hoo ( Halloween Care Package) Cant wait til he gets it lol. Also I am scheduling my Boudior Pictures. I am a little nervous ( which most ppl cant believe) due to the fact that I am open about so much and I talk about anything. It's different when I put on lingerie for my husband and he takes the picture then it is when someone else does it. But hey I want to surprise him and I know miles away this will kinda keep him warm and what can I say I am a lot better than porn lol. I am running low on words cause I am ever so tired so I will blog ya later =D 

It's been a while

So its has been while. I have and haven't had much to say. So I officially got my first phone call on Sept 17. I was so excited and so over whelmed I started crying. It was the best 10 minutes of my life =)  Now they are in river city ( which is were they cant communicate with us but can receive our emails) They have been in there for about 31/2 days. It feels like years though. Ugh I hope they are out of it before my birthday. I would love to just get an email from him.
So today I got a tattoo, I always said I would never get anyones name tattooed on me but with him it feels right.
I cant wait til he opens the email and sees it. I want to know what he thinks or if he likes it.

I also started school online, to get my degree in Early Childhood Education.  I am super excited about this. My goal is to become a Pre K or 5th grade teacher. I want to make Shane proud.  But most of all I am doing this for me. Well I am running low on words so I will Blog Ya Later =)

Disappointed

So..... I get an email from Shane telling me he is smashed ( drunk) and needless to say about an hr before i got his email I sent him a nice sweet email telling him how much I love him and miss him and how I am so happy to be his wife. The email I got sent back was I'm smashed and I wanna do this and this and this and this to me. He tried to call me but  I didn't put international on his phone but he couldn't get through and he told me he wanted to call me and tell me all these things. Now some of y'all think you know me and some of you do. For y'all that don't know me if he would have called me with that shit I would have hung up on him. My first phone call from deployment would have been hey baby i miss the way you (Nasty) this and  ( Nasty) that. Ugh no! I want to know who the F his liberty buddy was ummmmm child.I mind the getting drunk now I don't mind if he drinks a few here and there but he doesn't even get drunk around me. He is constantly telling me he doesn't like the person he is when he is like that.  I need for him to know I understand this is his third deployment and I know they have been stuck on the ship for a few weeks but control yourself. I need him to remember that he is married and the shit he did on the first two he cant do on this one. I am more disappointed then mad. I swear he is oh so gullible. Have of the guys he hangs with aren't married and my thoughts are that they shouldn't even be allowed to associate.  I am disappointed in him and I don't think he could ever know how much! 

Everything Happens For A Reason

It's been a few days since I blogged, I just have had a lot of things going on.  Thursday I went to the emergency room due to some very painful cramping only to find out that I was miscarrying again! It was hard I was very emotional and just felt like is this ever going to end. The hardest part of it was telling Shane while he was on Deployment he was so excited about this baby. He was sad but more worried about me emotionally and mentally. So on  Friday I tried looking at it on a brighter note. Maybe its not meant for me to be pregnant or have a baby when he isn't home. But hey I am going to keep trying til I cant try any more.  Now I have my mind focus on enrolling in school on the fifteenth if I can choose between accounting, early childhood education, or pharmacy tech. I have no idea what what I want to do better figure it our sometime soon. So now I am just trying my best to stay busy until Shane tells me whether his packet to cross rate was approved and if they would be sending him off the ship early. =) I'd love to pick him up from the airport instead of homecoming in Spring. Well I am running low on words..... Blog Ya Later =)