Randoms Ramblings Day Four Of Deployment

So it's day four woo hoo and guess what time is going by fast kinda sorta. I got to talk to my Petty Officer for the last time until God knows when today on the phone. I Love his voice but every time he calls I tear up. He can tell something is wrong by the sound of my voice and he gets worried. I'm working on getting better at covering it up because I don't need him worrying. But as he says he is my husband and its his job to worry about me. It doesn't help that I was diagnosed with Lupus during his second to last underway. Lupus is an autoimmune disease where the bodies immune system becomes hyperactive and attack normal, healthy tissue. Under normal function, the immune system makes proteins called antibodies in order to protect and fight against antigens such as viruses and bacteria. Lupus makes the immune system unable to differentiate between antigens and healthy tissue. This leads the immune system to direct antibodies against the healthy tissue - not just antigens - causing swelling, pain, and tissue damage. ( which some days are better than others) There are several types of Lupus but I was diagnosed with SLE also known as systemic lupus erythematosus. This is a more severe form of lupus only because  it can effect your bodies major organs. It's not fun at all. Ugh I just need to take my medicine and go to my doctor appointments and all should be okay. I think the hardest part is that it makes it hard for you to carry a baby full term. Shane and I want kids of our own. He is such a good uncle to my sisters baby. I can only imagine what an amazing father he is going to be. I want to give him that so bad. It's not impossible it just can be harmful to the baby and I. Huh I wont give up though! If it just wont happen there is always adoption which I always have wanted to do. Anyways my husband ring tone went off which means I have an email. So I will blog ya later. =)